It's been a long time coming..

Finally, an update...

The start of this year was crazy on my end. I literally did more than just multi-task since December up until now and sadly, I'm not seeing the end to all of it just yet. There's just too much stuff do and I honestly don't know how I could accomplish all of it before my self-imposed deadline. I call it my self-imposed deadline because I've finally decided to say adios to this company that I am working for. It's been a long time coming, believe me. But my heart is not in it anymore. I am no longer happy. So I'm leaving. At first, I thought of leaving at the start of the year... you know, new year, new job... but since it's the audit season, I decided to forego my plans until April 15th. Now, I have to add "scour for new jobs" to my long list of to do's. Well, goodluck to me.

Before the new year started, I had time alone to reflect on the life that I have lived thus far and of the things that I (still) want to do with my life and how I could live the life of my dreams. I have learned that the past 25 years, my life was littered with inconsequential, unimportant things. My life had no focus. My life was a tangent. I am living just for the present without even thinking of the future. Sure, there are some aspects of my life that are good, they may need a little tweaking in some areas, but they are good, nonetheless. And it comforts me. It comforts me that I wasn't a complete failure after all. But there is still time. And with the new year, it gave me new hope. Hope that I could still change things. I know this is waaaayyyyy too late for a new year's resolutions-slash-to do list, but since it's the Chinese New Year, I still think it's kinda appropriate.

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So, this year, I resolve to:

1. Live healthy / lose weight.

I must admit that one of the things that my boyfriend and I disagree upon is the concept of living healthy. I would literally roll my eyes everytime he would tell me to eat fruits or go for fish and veggies instead of meat or when he would stop me from getting my Snickers bar in the grocery. Wtf! Torture, man! But since I'm a good girlfriend, I would grudgingly oblige. Haha!

This year though, I decided to finally heed my boyfriend's advice and change my eating habits. I thought that since I am not getting any younger and my family have a history of hypertension and diabetes, I must as well start living healthy before it's too late. I also started working out at the start of the year. It's like hitting two birds with one stone. I would be healthy and the best part is, I would lose weight (hello Boracay and Bohol!). Oh, I must add that I really think that I will succeed in my attempt to lose weight cause I would literally starve myself for 1 year just to afford my monthly gym membership dues. Le sigh!

2. Change the world ( lol!)

Ok. I know this is a BIG thing and that I cannot do it alone, but I really want to do my part in all this "change the world" brouhaha. Really. I do want to make a difference in other people's lives, even in my own little ways. This was one my resolutions last year that I was not able to accomplish. Hopefully, this year I would finally be able to make headway with it. I was thinking of volunteering in an NGO that helps other people and at the same time, I have interest in. Well, as they say, small things do make a difference.

3. Socialize more.

Last year, I was kinda anti-social. I love my boyfriend so much so I wanna spend most of my free times with him and I don't wanna be anywhere else but with him. Haha! Guilty. He's like a drug to me, what can I say? My own brand of morphine. So this year, I decided to, you know, live more. Like go out with my friends (go clubbing again! haha! kidding hon!), keep in touch with old friends, strengthen old ties and meet new friends. Sounds pretty exciting to me.

4. Try new things.

This is something that excites me the most. There are a gazillion things that I wanna do that I haven't tried before. Don't get me started on the list cause I tell you, its verrryyyy long. I would just blog about my progress on those things in the months to come.

5. Be more disciplined.

Something that I lack. Wtf! Haha! But I need more of this to succeed in this nth attempt on New Year's resolutions. Goodluck to me!

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Oh, by the way, January's about to end. So what?, you ask? Nothing really. It's just that, it will be my birthday soon. Just thought you should know. Haha!